Anxious Mamas

This is for all the moms out there with excessive worry and anxiety. Whatever the reason - I want you to know you are not alone. I am sending you love.

Here’s a little bit about my anxious mama journey…

I have never experienced as much anxiety and worry as I did this past year. My youngest son began his chronic illness battle in January 2022 - I had already been working with my generally anxious self for the better part of 30 years when this new form of anxiety showed up in me. It seemed that the more he struggled along with zero answers from experts, the more I suffered. Now, before I go on here, I want you to know that with every allergic reaction, trip to the ER, tragedy in the community, ups and downs of school and friends, awkward growth spurts and transitions- I have handled life as a boy mom pretty darn well. While I could experience concern and even worry - I have never been a “hover mom” nor did I experience debilitating anxiety regarding my kids or parenting. Until this year.

My days for a solid twelve months (really 14 total months) were spent searching for answers, studying quantum biology, working a few hours and worrying almost constantly. I would feel a glimmer of hope for some hours but mostly felt alone in my anguish. I would love to say we are on the other side of this nightmare - but we are still sludging through. I have learned invaluable information and lessons - hopefully I will be able to share more in the coming months that could be useful for others. The best learning I have ever done was as a direct result of trying to help my child. I am grateful this time of need led me to quantum health.

The silver lining here in addition to learning valuable information is that I stepped up my own healing. I was a high functioning mildly anxious person that enjoyed personal growth and development before I found myself in a situation where I knew if I didn’t really support my own health while trying to help my son - I was going to drown in a sea of worry and despair. It was similar to when I tried to help my father after his cancer diagnosis. Everything I studied and wanted him to try - I tried for myself. It was similar this time in that every time I would learn more about mitochondrial health and pick up a quantum health strategy, I would implement it in my routine. I am not sure I would have invested the time and money if it had not been for him. One example is purchasing a red light panel for my son, and then using it myself. Also, buying blue blocking glasses for the whole family and realizing the amazing benefits for my own sleep and vitality.

My hope is that as we continue our healing journey over here, I can share and support others going through a similar experience. Specifically, I would love to help other anxious mamas find some peace, healing and companionship. Even with great friends and family members - this is a unique anxiety that I find rarely feels completely understood by others around me. If you are in it, you know what I mean.

I want to encourage you to take really good care of yourself. You cannot help your family if you are depleted. It is a normal response to feel anxious in the midst of unsettling times. It is not helpful to remain chronically anxious. You must find ways to support your nervous system. Keep making your way to the present moment. Bring yourself back to the current breath you are taking. Fix your light environment, support your circadian rhythms, and find what feels supportive to you. If you’re not sure what all that means, watch my free videos on YouTube, and keep coming back here for more info. May we all make our way to our own healing in every painful experience.

In health,

Kelli